A Defining Moment
Updated: Jul 20, 2021
Isaiah 41:10~ Fear not, for I am with you; Be not dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you, Yes, I will help you, I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.
The night my son was diagnosed with appendicitis was the night fear and loneliness gripped my heart in a way that I cannot describe with words. After what seemed to have been a lifetime of waiting, the ER doctor finally confirmed what the emergency medical technician had spoken hours earlier, my son would have to undergo surgery. Although I was relieved to finally have a diagnosis, I was so terribly afraid and so was my son.
Eleven years ago, my son father’s appendix ruptured. During surgery, the surgeon discovered a tumor, which turned out to be colon cancer. One year later, he passed away. My son was only ten years old at the time his father passed; however, he still remembered the accounts of his father’s illness and death. I could see the fear in his eyes as he reminded me about what happened to his dad. I tried to be strong for my son, but I was fearful and afraid too. I assured my son he would be fine and prayed the Word of the Lord over him as the medical staff prepped him for surgery.
When they took my son back for surgery, I was taken to the surgery area waiting room. I remembered thinking to myself that the chairs in the waiting room were really dark and big. The chairs were dark brown and they reclined. There was a big screen television on the wall and windows all around the back wall. As I sat down in the chair, I looked over my shoulder into the darkness. The thoughts and images of my son’s father played over and over in my head.
As I prepared to recline my chair, I glanced around the waiting room and realized that every single chair in the waiting room was empty. I was completely alone. It was definitely a defining moment for me. It was one of the darkest moments of my life. Not one single person I knew was there with me in the physical.
As I began to refocus on my son's situation and on the conversation with the surgeon, I started to cry. God reminded me of Isaiah 41:10. The first thing he reminded me was 1) not to fear because He was with me; 2) not to be dismayed because He was my God; 3) He will strengthen me; 4) He will help me; and 5) He will uphold me with His righteous right hand.
According to the Merriam Webster dictionary, the word dismayed means to experience or show feelings of alarmed concern; to be worried, upset, or agitated because of some unwelcomed situation or occurrence. We will never be defeated. God promised to uphold us with His Victorious Right Hand. 2 Corinthians 2:14 states Now thanks be to God who always leads us in triumph in Christ, and through us diffuses the fragrance of His knowledge in every place (NKJV).
I eventually drifted off to sleep and was awaken by the surgeon. I was greeted with good news; my son’s surgery was a success, and he was in recovery. There were no tumors or mass found! Praise God! God did in fact strengthen me and He upheld me with His Victorious Right Hand. He will also do the same for you. Whatever you are facing today, just know that you are not defeated and you are never alone! So, do not fear!
I AM KATRINA LAVETTE’